I truly believe that some changes brings about painbodies. Random aches and pains or patterned illness can be a link to our inner soul. Our inner workings and the universe helping us see the big picture.
My legs have been a cause of pain for me since the birth of my daughter, Grace. I had varicose vein surgery a year after I had her. Both legs had a vein and tributaries taken out, although I don't think they got them all. Continued swelling, aches and focused pain had come to be a normal thing.
I thought I was given this as a message from the universe....Loose weight, get some exercise, get healthy! Which I have taken steps in all of these areas and am gradually getting healthier. However, set backs have come like lightning. Stiking me down, forcing me to be less active and I have become some what frustrated. My energy level has dropped and I am being forced to realize that this is more than I can deal with.
My daughter in the meantime has developed some painful rituals to help deal with the overwhelming change of going to public school. Too many rules, too much discpline, not enough nap time or cuddles. She is downright nasty some nights after school and needs to sleep almost immediately when returning home.
A good friend offered to do a past life regression for a very reasonable charge. All of the lives that came to me had vivid memories and feelings. That should be saved for another blog...One life in particular featured me as a homeless man in the city of London with a old friend who helped me get around. My legs began feeling very tired and actually tingled during this portion of the session. I then went to being an expectant mother on a farm with a younger son who was helping a cow give birth. I feverishly went to the ground and my legs felt numb. I had passed out or lost conciousness during the session for only a moment but in that time, I felt my legs had been removed from my body. How are my legs connected to my past lives and how can I heal them? What needs to change in my life to help this healing process?
As my life changes and begins to unfold in unexpected ways I start to feel the pain in my legs once more. My injuries and illnesses have subsided and I am ready to become strong, lean and fit. Ready to meet these leg issues head on. By healing my legs, may it heal my soul and make me a better spirit.
As for Grace's dilema with school, her teacher says she will adjust and come to accept school as the norm. How can this be the norm? It is so cruel, stressful and full of fear. Thinking of everything she must be going through; Kids not accepting her, teachers scolding her, she is unable to hug, kiss or be loved because of the "touch a child, loose a recess" rule. I am assured by her teacher, who seems to be legit, that the kids can hug just not without prior asking first. This was demonstrated in class by Grace and another child. Almost too rehearsed for me. I felt the teacher was doing it just for me and she was annoyed she had to bother. The amazing part was the kids ate it up. Many of them got out of their seats to hug and the teacher had to raise her voice to get them to sit down. Why not have a hug fest? 3 minutes in the morning where you hug your classmates? All you need is love right?
Grace needs hugs, I need new legs. Ha.
